Fool

You thought you were different. That's a little bit funny. You knew her past, you knew what she had done, but you thought you were different. You thought you could make a difference. You thought you could change the irreparable patterns of her previous fate. Poor fool, you had no idea.

For the first few months you falsely convinced yourself that you had accomplished that impossible feat. You allowed yourself to believe that you single-handedly did what was said could not be done. You learned from your mistake very quickly, however. The darkness that surrounded her soul soon become all too apparent to you, and you knew you were already in way too deep to back out. At this point you had cages built all around that you forged from within your heart which kept you from truly living. You became a slave to her rage and short-sightedness. What a fool.

Fool in love? Of course, why not? Most lovers are fools, beings who convince themselves that what they have is greater than it actually is in order to be able to live their lives with ease. Those who deny it can't accept it, it's as simple as that. But you thought that you were different. You weren't a fool, the love you felt couldn't be fake. You knew it was real, and you knew it was making you a better person. You also knew that eventually this roller coaster that had been heading up for these few short months was going to come down, all at once.

Unresolved love and misguided love are warning signals should you see if you find yourself falling for someone whose had either. Unresolved love leads to mixed feelings and fulfillment which is derived from a source other than yourself. They want the love someone else used to give them, but since that person can't, they want you to give it to them. They want you to give them love as if it was from someone else. The only thing is, you won't realize it until it's too late. Misguided love stems from wanting to be loved no matter the circumstances. Desperation and loneliness lead to falling in love fairly easily. You don't do it because you care about the other person. You just want the loneliness to cease, even if it is under the guise of a fake love. Still, your heart will convince you that it is real, and you won't realize until it is much too late that up to this point every emotion and fiber of your being has been constructed.

If a person leaves someone they love in order to be with you, then they will eventually leave you in order to be with someone else. If you feel as if you've gained love a bit too easily, then you will lose it just as easily. Having love is a hard thing, and if you find it is easy, then there is often some dark and elusive reason which will eventually lead you to starring on the Maury Povich show. Be wary of people who give themselves to you without knowing anything about you. These people are dangerous. They will be whoever you want them to be, and when you are sucked in to their pit with no escape they will then take off their mask.

Soon that love that you had been told was unconquerable will begin to emerge. All the signals told you that it was a bad idea, and a mistake. You didn't care, though, you thought that you could do it, and so you tried. Finally it is now that you realize you don't stand a chance against something like that. You never stood a chance from the beginning, you were just fooling yourself in to thinking that you did. You were possessed by powers far greater than your self-will.

In the aftermath there is wisdom to be gained, but you are unsure as to where you should go next. Lost, like many people, in a sea of forgotten lovers whose shores are so distant, and whose waters are bereft of life rafts. You know that the torch has been passed on to another. You know that somewhere out there that temptress is working her magic on another soul, and you cannot help but pity him.

Such a fool is he.