it's nights like these
i remember all the
fucked up things about
my life and who i am,
why i'm still alone
and entirely unfulfilled
with the course of
where i'm going and
where i've been.
completely unsatisfied
with my life thus far
and wondering if
it's possible to erase
who i am and start
as someone better,
start as someone i
might even love.

italy

we went to italy together,
both in our 20s,
wanting to see more of the world.

our hotel overlooked
the venetian canals
packed with tourists.

at sunset we'd stroll
through golden streets
bustling with activity.

we made love,
mostly in the afternoon,
when the heat made us lazy.

we enjoyed the art,
paintings, buildings, food,
mostly in silence.

it was in those moments
we shared something great
that we can never get back.