Wednesday, June 06, 2012

betrayal

i let her inside where none had been before,
sharing the deepest parts of myself,
any semblance of privacy removed,
any notion of filtration purged.

she settled on my heart
like a bird in a nest,
only to fly away, away,
at the first sign of winter.

bitterness and anger replaced
her love and warmth and kindness.
toxic thoughts of self doubt
transplanted those of a bright future.

in a fashion others would deem tragic,
i secretly always wished this would happen.
a broken part of me simply longs to hurt,
to be destroyed so fundamentally.

my only solace comes from the day
when she realizes the gravity of her betrayal,
and exactly what she's thrown away --
and how grave a mistake she made.