I Wonder

I wonder if at some other time,
We could have shared a meal.
With laughs and smiles and living,
None of which happens now.

I wonder if at some other time,
There was a move I should've made.
Something to make it a little better,
But now can no longer do.

I wonder if at some other time,
I should've said "you're a loving friend."
It might have ignited warmth in your heart,
Now it no longer will.

I wonder if at some other time,
You were really holding back.
So that this moment in time I have,
Would not cause tears to fall.

I wonder if at some other time,
This time - in the future.
I will look back to you with love,
And thank you for changing me.