you lie next to me tonight
while thoughts of doubt
swirl in the air around us
spreading uneasiness.

your past has caught
up with us again
as is its habit of doing
when all is going well.

repressive emotions
bear physical weight
as if pushing down
upon my soul.

our fingertips touch,
i wonder if you're awake,
and pull my hand away,
confirming the accident.

doubt supplants certainty,
answers become questions,
thoughts of who i think you are
dissipate like our love.